I was so worried about how it would work with the twins. Juggling two babies sounded impossible, exhausting, and like it would rob me of the experience of really stopping and breathing in my babies while I fed them. I'll admit, this time around breastfeeding has been harder. It's been fraught with way more worry over supply, weight gain, reflux, and ultimately supplementing. The twins have been hungrier, needing to eat every 2 hours for most of their lives. Before I mastered tandem feeding, I felt like I sat on the couch all day and fed babies. Netflix and I got really close during those first few weeks.
Then I perfected the tandem feed in a way that works for us. We became expert breastfeeders and it really didn't take much more time than just one baby. In the middle of the night I was only up for 15 minutes feeding them. Still, every now and then I would feed one baby at a time and I'd relish the one on one time, thinking "oh, this would be so much nicer!"
But now the twins are 9 and a half months old and are drinking more bottles and less breastmilk because I just can't keep up with their needs. I still nurse them 3 or 4 times a day, but I'm starting to see the light at the end of the breastfeeding tunnel and all of a sudden I'm longing to remember every moment of feeding twins. How many people get the experience of two precious babies looking up and smiling at you when they are done eating? I love the feeling of four frenzied little hands fluttering across my chest, playing with each other's hair and mine, so comfortable being one big pile of arms and legs and mouths. This whole twin experience is something so special. It's a club I never wanted to join, but I'm so glad I did.
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